Friday, October 4, 2013
A Faint Autumn Memory
The air is cool, the leaves are falling, the lawn is large. As I go up and down the acre on the lawn tractor, inevitably the same memory comes back to me, not just the visual memory, but the sensation of one particular Halloween evening around 1973 or so.
Monica, who I initially met through church, but later became neighbors, lived just across the way from me. She was so pretty with her Marcia Brady blonde hair, and a huge smile and welcoming blue eyes. Her parents had converted the attic of their home into a super-cute bedroom for her, so we spent a ton of time hanging out up there.
Her mother was an administrator in the school district, while her father worked at Sears. Her grandmother, whom I rarely saw, shared the home with them. Monica also had an older sister who turned me on to the now iconic "Tapestry" album, by Carole King, as well the now very famous "All My Children".
In 1973 we were in Jr. High and Monica had an admirer. Brad, who's parents were teachers in the school district. He was tall, lanky, blonde and had braces. He hung out with Jeffrey, who's dad was the principal of the elementary school we all previously attended. Jeffrey was a larger guy, with dark, coppery red hair and dark freckles to match.
Halloween evening we made it a foursome, too "old" for costumes, and certainly too young to actually date, so we started at Monica's house where her mom made cocoa for us, then over to my house where we hung out on the front porch (still visible from Monica's house). The air was cool, the chatter fun. I had hopes of Jeffrey being interested in me, but alas, and thankfully, it didn't come to pass. Two vibrant red heads would only be capable of producing Bozo-like children.
Monica and I drifted apart in high school. And as with all young romances, Monica and Brad's was short lived, but the coziness and the expectancy of the evening, and a warm friendship that lasted much longer, has remained with me for a lifetime.
Friday, September 13, 2013
An Even Keel
While driving home from work this late afternoon, I thought, "You know, I should be happier. It is Friday after all. The work week is done and a good weekend up ahead. There's lots to be happy about."
But then I realized that while I wasn't overly happy, I wasn't down in the dumps either. Hey, that's not a bad place to be at the moment. If life was a constant of immeasurable joys, then the real watershed moments in life may be overlooked, or at the very least, unappreciated. Not exactly a lightening bolt revelation, but one that needs to be remembered now and again.
Keep it easy, keep it simple, just keep life at an even keel and enjoy the smooth sailing!
Friday, August 30, 2013
Just. Be. Still
“Gloom, despair, and agony on me
Deep, dark depression,
excessive misery”
This infamous song from
the TV show Hee-Haw comes to mind as I think back on the past two years, but
only in terms of my “career”. Family and friends are great, but I think
everyone has at least one part of their life that just isn’t firing on all
pistons.
I’ve always been the
little engine that could, never accepting the status quo when it comes to
finding opportunities to advance my career.
I’m not talking about smashing through any glass ceilings or sticking my
stiletto heels (should I ever wear them) into someone’s forehead behind me on
the corporate ladder. I am talking about
completing my undergraduate degree (3.86 GPA – thank you very much) and also keeping
my eyes and ears open for opportunities to present themselves. Because of this my
career has taken some crazy turns, all for the better. But alas, my little choo-choo train of
momentum has pulled into the station with no signs of leaving any time soon
which is very difficult for me to accept.
Unless it’s an all-out
party, I don’t like surprises. Instead I
live the Boy Scouts motto of “Be Prepared”. What am I preparing for? Illness, plain and simple. Not mine, but Roger’s, so that I know that I
did absolutely everything possible to make sure that he has the best care
available, as well as money in the bank to fall back on. And, to still have lots of fun in the meantime.
So now comes the hard
part.
Being still, in my heart, this is the easiest as my heart knows its time to take a break. Being still in my mind however is the most difficult as it's not in my nature to sit back and let que sera sera rule the day, without feeling
like I’ve thrown in the towel and given up.
Of late, life is squarely showing me that it's time to take a moment and look at everything around me right here, right
now, and stop trying to incessantly peer around corners and into the future. No more looking at job boards, masters
programs, even housing and medical reports in various parts of the country. Now is the time to let life happen in
whatever form that God has intended.
Just. Be. Still.
GLOOM, DESPAIR AND AGONY
ON ME
From the TV Show
"Hee-Haw" (1969 -1992)
Buck Owens & Roy
Clark
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
You're a Time Suck
It's time. It's way past time and as disconcerting as it is, I have to break off our relationship. You're a time suck, and I am no longer finding any real enjoyment from our interactions, no real sense of accomplishment. You're there morning, noon and night, yet I feel empty.
We broke up once before, but for some inexplicable reason I let you back in.
I love how I've justified my involvement with you, even the occasional money leaving my bank account in total support of our relationship. You see, my friends and family, their relationships of folly seem down right silly, and completely inane to me. After all, they're playing for candy, but me, no, I'm playing to form "words". Climbing level after level in "Words of Wonder". No multi-colored tiles for me! Oh no, just forming words, brilliant 3 - 6 letter words in order to "clear the ink", "clear the tiles" or "drop 7 feathers", all before a bomb bursts, or the time runs out.
But alas, time has run out on us for good. The dishwasher needs to be emptied, dinner needs to be made, words need to be written. And I mean words that link together to form actual sentences and thoughts.
So with this, I'm going to my Facebook account and removing you from my profile. For good this time! Just you wait and see, really, I mean it this time, after one more round, you're a goner!
We broke up once before, but for some inexplicable reason I let you back in.
I love how I've justified my involvement with you, even the occasional money leaving my bank account in total support of our relationship. You see, my friends and family, their relationships of folly seem down right silly, and completely inane to me. After all, they're playing for candy, but me, no, I'm playing to form "words". Climbing level after level in "Words of Wonder". No multi-colored tiles for me! Oh no, just forming words, brilliant 3 - 6 letter words in order to "clear the ink", "clear the tiles" or "drop 7 feathers", all before a bomb bursts, or the time runs out.
But alas, time has run out on us for good. The dishwasher needs to be emptied, dinner needs to be made, words need to be written. And I mean words that link together to form actual sentences and thoughts.
So with this, I'm going to my Facebook account and removing you from my profile. For good this time! Just you wait and see, really, I mean it this time, after one more round, you're a goner!
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